Stuck in the middle

I've been in limbo for a while now. My job has me in a corner and there's really nothing I can do about it. I've been with the company for almost two years, and in my current position for one.

Let me repeat that. I am a twenty-three year old college graduate that has been interning for over a year.

Those who know me have heard my sob story a million times. The promise of a full time position is often dangled in front of me like a carrot. Every time it seems almost in grasp, it's jerked away. The one holding the fishing pole isn't jerking in a cruel way. It's more of a "Oh look over there! Something very important! That needs my full attention!", and the carrot drifts away, bobbing behind, forgotten.

I often get caught up in the stress this brings me, but when I really look at where I'm at, I have to laugh. I have a JOB. I have a job in SOCIAL MEDIA. And most importantly, my family is taken care of! I eat! Sometime I have cheese crackers and a packet of oatmeal for lunch, but I eat! And that's enough. You're supposed to struggle in your 20's right? It builds character? Or at least makes you thinner, maybe?

Anyway all that living in a murk can be crazy sometimes, especially when you feel like you don't have control over your own life, but I know in my heart I'm where I'm supposed to be. 

picture via Lizzy Stewart I love her illustrations! That's how I feel most days at work.